Healing

I write about the body and my relationship to it often. It’s something I feel changing over the years, as life happens. During the pandemic our bodies felt like machines to exercise and precious goods to protect. There was a battle between physical and mental health, where keeping ourselves safe came at a cost to our social connections. Friendships shifted and are still reconfiguring. I … Continue reading Healing

Blue skies and high ceilings

Once again we’ve reached the post-lockdown phase, restrictions tentatively lifting around the UK. The big difference for me is having had the first dose of the Covid vaccine. It felt like completing the final levels of a computer game as I walked round the cavernous conference centre. You give personal details at one desk, receive medical advice at another, go this way, go that way, … Continue reading Blue skies and high ceilings

Living apart together

Legend has it that Frida Kahlo and Diego Rivera lived in two interconnected houses. So did Helena Bonham Carter and Tim Burton. These examples of keeping separate living space as a couple make it seem like an eccentric, artistic lifestyle choice. Yet so many women I know desperately want their own space (whilst also often wanting to be in relationships). It’s not surprising that a … Continue reading Living apart together

What would Sophia Loren do?

One way I’ve been passing time is watching old Italian movies. I’m in a Sophia Loren phase. Apart from giving me full confidence that eating spaghetti is the way to live, her characters have a strength, practicality and robustness that is reassuring. As well as the vintage collection, her most recent movie is on Netflix along with a documentary, What would Sophia Loren do? It’s … Continue reading What would Sophia Loren do?

Communal living

I haven’t written much lately. Lots of things are half-written, half-read and half-thought. The end of 2020 and start of 2021 blurred into one confusing block of time, which has now passed. I had reached the point where anxiety affected me physically. Stomach pain, leg cramps, awake each day at 3am in panic, frantically googling symptoms. Living in a fog of tiredness, yet on high … Continue reading Communal living

Bed rest

I’ve spent a lot of time horizontal recently. Some of which was giving into the need to rest after a draining year. But some of it has been involuntary; being unable to move much due to unexplained pains in my abdomen. It’s not really what I wanted for Christmas, but on the positive side at least I was off work anyway! This particular problem got … Continue reading Bed rest

Manoeuvres

It’s December and I’m wearing my leather gloves as the temperature is dropping. I was wearing them constantly in March. For a while they felt like my armour against the fearful global climate. It was a bewildering time and I’m not sure if that time has ended. We block out stressful periods so I remember only snapshots from earlier in the year. The eery feeling … Continue reading Manoeuvres